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  “Well, not so much, really. But not for lack of trying on my part.” Time to face the music, Brenna told herself, and she turned around. “I want to sleep with him. That’s all.”

  “You want to—” Because her throat had snapped shut, Darcy broke off and rubbed a hand over it. “You want to sleep with Shawn? Well, why?”

  “The usual reasons.”

  Darcy started to speak, then raised a hand to hold Brenna off while she gathered her own thoughts. “All right, I’m thinking. You’ve been in somewhat of a sexual drought just recently, so I can see you’d . . . No, no, I’m not quite seeing. It’s Shawn we’re speaking of here. Shawn who’s been a thorn in both our sides since we were babies.”

  “Sure and it’s an oddity, I admit. But the thing here is, Darcy, I’ve had a bit of a . . . of a yen for him for . . . well, forever. I just thought it was time to act on it or I’d always have one, and where would that get me?”

  “I’m sitting down.” She did so, right in the doorway. “You acted on it.”

  “I did, and he was as surprised as you are by the idea, at least initially. And he wasn’t very flattering about it, either. But he’s in the way of interested now. It’s just that I’ve discovered this is yet one more thing you can’t rush Shawn over. And it’s fair to killing me.”

  Meticulously, she coated her roller with varnish and spread it thin and smooth. “I’m sorry you’re upset about it. I’d hoped that we could just get it done, so to speak, with no one the wiser.”

  “Don’t you have any feelings for him, then?”

  “Of course I do.” Brenna’s head came up again. “Of course I do, Darcy. We’re all like family. This is just . . . it’s just different.”

  “It’s different, that’s the truth.” Struggling to adjust, Darcy sighed out a breath. “I was going to protect you from him—knowing that he has a way with women that can make them softheaded over him, and him barely noticing half the time. But now that I’ve heard what you’ve said, Brenna, I have to turn that coin over.”

  Genuinely surprised, Brenna set her roller on the end of the pan. “You think he needs protecting from me? Darcy, I’m not exactly your femme fatale sort of woman.” She spread her arms, knowing very well how she looked in her grubby work clothes and battered boots. “I think Shawn’s safe from the likes of me.”

  “Then you don’t understand him, not in his heart. There’s romance in him, the kind of dreaminess that builds castles in the air. He has a delicacy of feeling. He’d cut off his arm before he’d cause hurt to another. Cut them both off because he caused a moment’s pain to someone he cared for. And he cares for you. It’s not so far a step from caring for to loving. What will you do if he falls in love with you?”

  “He won’t.” She nearly took a step back, from the question and the idea. “Of course he won’t.”

  “Don’t hurt him.” Darcy got to her feet. “Please don’t hurt him.”

  “I—” But as Darcy had already turned away, Brenna had to hurry after her. “Darcy, you mustn’t worry so.” Brenna gripped the banister when Darcy turned, halfway down the stairs. “We both know what we’re about, I promise you. We’ve already taken a vow to stay friends through it.”

  “Make sure it’s a vow you don’t break. You both mean a great deal to me.” She worked up a smile because her friend seemed to need it. “Sleeping with Shawn,” Darcy said with her usual bite. “What is the world coming to?”

  TEN

  AFTER CLOSING, WHEN the village was so quiet that only the heartbeat of the sea could be heard, the Gallaghers gathered around the kitchen table of their family home with tea and with whiskey. “Here’s where we stand.”

  “Aidan laid a hand over Jude’s as he spoke, and hers turned under his so their fingers linked. He had a sudden, vivid picture of his parents joining hands in exactly the same manner when they’d sat at table’s head for a family meeting.

  The Gallagher way, he thought. One link leading to another in a chain of tradition.

  “Well, where do we stand?” Darcy demanded.

  “Sorry.” Aidan shook his head. “My mind went wandering. So, at the start. Finkle may be a Yank, but he’s no green one when it comes to horse trading. I wouldn’t believe as successful a man of business as Magee is reputed to be would send any but a sharp individual to look after his interests.”

  “Be that as it may,” Shawn considered, “he fell for the man from London.”

  Aidan grinned in appreciation and nodded. “Well, now, we’re not green either, come to that. And the Irish were horse traders before those looking for America ever found her. But that’s neither here nor there.”

  He started to toss the patiently waiting Finn a biscuit, then remembered the presence of his wife and cleared his throat. “Finkle, he liked the look of the land, the setup, the location, and so forth. I’m sure of that, though he made little noises and grunts and pulled on his lip rather than commit. He said again how the Magee is set on buying, and I said again how that was easy to understand, and a man likes his own and so on and so forth. But how we’re set on leasing.”

  “We’d have more money sooner, and could put it to work for us making more if we just sold,” Darcy piped up.

  “That’s true enough.” Aidan nodded toward her. “

  “And we’d have more control,” Shawn put in, “part of the profit, and a hand in what’s done with what’s ours if we hold the lease. Look ahead, Darcy, to ten years down the road. And twenty, and the legacy to your children.”

  “Who says I’m having any?” She shrugged her shoulders. “But I see your point. It’s a hard thing for me to resist grabbing the money held out at the moment.”

  “A hundred years’ lease is our offer.”

  “A hundred?” Darcy’s eyes popped wide, and Aidan merely looked at his wife.

  “A hundred’s the number of magic.”

  “This is business, not fairy spells.”

  “You use the fairies where you find them.” Shawn added a drop of whiskey to his tea. It seemed to go with these dealings. “If Magee is forward-thinking, a lease of a hundred years will appeal to him. Brenna knows something of his company.” He caught Darcy’s jerk to attention out of the corner of his eye at his mention of Brenna. “From what she told me, he’s a fair man, but far from green himself. So I’m thinking he’ll look even beyond the century.”

  “As should we. A pound a year for a hundred years.”

  “A pound?” Darcy threw up her hands. “Why not just give him the bloody land, then?”

  “For that price we ask for fifty percent of his theater.”

  Darcy settled again, her eyes sharpening. “And settle for?”

  “Twenty. And at the end of the term the land, and the theater, are owned, equal shares. Gallagher and Magee.”

  “It’s a sweet deal if the theater takes hold.” Darcy agreed. “And leaning heavily in our direction.”

  “It’ll take hold,” Aidan said with a gleam in his eye. “With Gallagher luck and Magee money.”

  “I’m willing to trust that. Now, why should he agree to those terms?”

  “I—” Jude started to speak, then closed her mouth.

  “No, have your say.” Aidan gave her hand a squeeze. “You’re part of this.”

  “Well, I think he will agree. After some negotiations and posturing and perhaps a few more adjustments. You may have to give a bit more, but in the end you’ll have fairly close to what you’re after—because in the end, all parties want the same thing.”

  “Magee wants his theater,” Darcy put in.

  “More than that.” In an automatic gesture, Jude slapped Shawn’s hand before he could sneak Finn a biscuit. “He has a reason for choosing this place, and the kind of man who helms that successful a business can indulge himself from time to time. His people came from here,” she went on. “His great-uncle was engaged to my great-aunt.”

  “Of course.” Shawn tapped a finger against the whiskey bottle as it came to him. “John Mage
e who was lost in the first great war. His youngest brother—Dennis, was it—went off to America to make his fortune. I didn’t put it together before now.”

  “I don’t know how much sentiment is in the motive for this Magee selecting Ardmore,” Jude went on, “but it’s bound to be part of the motivation. If this Magee had anything like my background, he grew up on stories of Ireland, and of this area in particular. Now he wants a more tangible tie with the place his family came from. I understand that.”

  “That Yank sentiment over ancestors.” Amused, Darcy helped herself to the whiskey. “I’ll never understand it. Ancestors . . . sure and they’ve been dead for long years, haven’t they? But if sentiment helps glue the deal, that’s fine with me.”

  “That’ll be part of it, but—sorry, it’s the psychologist in me again—he’ll also have his eye on profit. If he didn’t, he wouldn’t have one of the largest companies in the States. And for the same reasons, he’ll have his eye on his reputation.”

  “And ours will be on our own.” Shawn lifted his glass.

  “You’ve quite the reputation, don’t you?” Darcy sent Shawn a sour smile.

  “Not as well rounded as yours, darling.”

  “At least I don’t go around seducing childhood friends.”

  Slowly, and with a dangerous gleam in his eye, he set his glass down again. Before feathers could fly, Aidan stretched an arm between them. “Now what? What’s all this?”

  “Ah, she’s got her nose out of joint because I kissed Brenna.”

  “Well, there’s nothing to squabble about . . .” Aidan’s hand dropped onto the table. “Brenna O’Toole?”

  “Of course Brenna O’Toole.”

  “What were you doing kissing our Brenna?”

  “Aidan.” Jude tugged on his sleeve. “This is Shawn’s business.”

  “It’s ours as it’s Brenna.”

  “Mother of God. It’s not as if I grabbed her by the hair and dragged her to the kitchen floor to force myself on her in a carnal fashion while she tried to fight me off.”

  “You were on the kitchen floor?”

  “We were not.” At his wits’ end, Shawn pressed his fingers to his eyes. “A man can’t have a simple life in this family. I kissed Brenna, and not for the first time. Neither do I plan on it being the last. And I fail to see why that’s such a puzzlement to everyone who knows us. And an outrage as well.”

  Darcy folded her hands. She’d learned something she’d hoped to by the poking at him. He hadn’t mentioned that it was Brenna who’d initiated the shift in relationship. With another man she’d chalk it up to ego. But with Shawn she knew it was instinctive protection of the woman involved.

  The fact both pleased and worried her.

  “It’s just . . . surprising,” Aidan said.

  “I’m not outraged.” Darcy sent Shawn a sweet, sisterly look. “But puzzled I am. After all, Brenna’s seen you naked already—some years ago, to be sure, but still such things linger in the mind. And having had a good look at your equipment, I can’t think why she’d be the least bit interested.”

  “That’s a question you’ll have to put to her.” He wanted to leave it at that, dignified, dismissive, but it rankled. “I wasn’t more than fifteen, and the water was cold. A man’s not at his best just out of frigid water, you know.”

  “That’s your story, son, and you stick with it.”

  “And you shouldn’t have been looking in that direction. But you always were a perverted sort.”

  “Why shouldn’t I have looked? Everyone else was. He lost his trunks in the sea,” she explained to Jude, “and didn’t realize it till he was standing clear of the surf, jay naked. I’ve always regretted the lack of a camera.”

  Jude glanced at Shawn with sympathy. “I used to regret being an only child. But there are some circumstances when—oh!”

  “What is it?” Aidan was on his feet like a shot, prepared to haul his wife into his arms, when she pressed her finger to her belly. “There, you’ve upset her with your bickering.”

  “No, no. The baby’s moving.” Thrilled, she grabbed Aidan’s hand and laid it over her middle. “Do you feel it? It’s like a rippling inside me.”

  Panic shifted to awe, filling his eyes, his heart. “He’s lively.”

  “It’s a family meeting, after all. Why shouldn’t he be part of it?” Shawn raised his glass again. “Slainte.”

  He went to visit Maude. Since he’d been used to seeing her once or twice a week most of his life, Shawn saw no reason that should change after death. And her resting place was a good spot for thinking. It had nothing much to do with the fact that he would stroll near the cliff hotel on his way. It wasn’t likely he’d see Brenna, but, well, if he didn’t walk in that direction, there was no chance at all of seeing her.

  As he recalled, Maude Fitzgerald had been the romantic sort, and he thought she’d appreciate the logic of it.

  The hotel sat dramatically on the cliffs, with the sea spread before it. And though the air was brisk with morning, a scattering of guests were out and about enjoying the view. Shawn gave himself the pleasure of it as well, and as he watched the boats bob and sail over the water, he thanked his ancestors for going into the business of a public house rather than fishing.

  There was Tim Riley and his crew hauling in nets while the waves kicked and danced. There was a rhythm to it that had Shawn tapping his foot and set pipe against cello in a musical duel in his head.

  Shawn imagined the tourists thought the boats looked picturesque. They probably viewed the idea of making a living from the sea as a kind of romantic venture steeped in history and tradition. But as he stood, wind flowing through his dark hair and doing its best to sneak under his sweater, he could only think it a cold and lonely and capricious life.

  He’d take a warm pub and a busy kitchen any day of the week.

  But it was romance that whirled through Mary Kate’s mind when she rushed out after spotting him. She had to press a hand to her heart, as it filled with images.

  She looked at Shawn, standing on the cliffs, legs spread, eyes on the horizon, and she saw Heathcliff, Rhett Butler, Lancelot, and every other heroic fantasy that might fill an infatuated young woman’s dreams.

  She was glad she’d borrowed her sister Patty’s new blue blouse that morning, though Patty wasn’t going to be pleased about it. Making a valiant attempt to smooth her hair, Mary Kate hurried forward.

  “Shawn.”

  When he turned and saw her coming toward him, Shawn cursed himself. He hadn’t thought of the possibility of running into Brenna’s sister, not when he’d been so busy thinking of Brenna.

  Mind your step, Gallagher, he warned himself. “Good morning, Mary Kate. I was forgetting the hotel is full of O’Tooles just now.”

  She had to untangle her tongue. His eyes were so clear in this light. If she looked into them deeply enough, she could see herself reflected back. It was so alluring.

  “You should come in out of the wind. I’ve a break now, I’ll buy you some tea.”

  “That’s a kind offer, but I’m on my way to see Old Maude. I was just watching Tim Riley pull in his nets, and they looked heavy with fish. I’ll have to go about bargaining with him later for some of his catch.”

  “Why don’t you stop by on your way back?” She tilted her head, running a hand through her hair and looking up at him under her lashes in a look she’d practiced endlessly. “I can take my lunch most anytime.”

  “Ah . . .” She had more skill in flirtation than he’d given her credit for. It was just a little frightening. “I’m due at the pub before long.”

  “I’d love to be able to sit and talk with you.” She laid a hand on his arm. “When there’s not so much going on.”

  “Well, that’s a thought, isn’t it? I’ve got to be going. You should go inside. You shouldn’t be standing out here in that thin blouse. You’ll catch a chill. My best to your family.”

  As he made his escape, Mary Kate sighed. He’d noticed t
he blouse.

  He’d handled that well, Shawn congratulated himself. Friendly, a sort of older brother to younger sister kind of thing. He was sure the little crisis had passed. And it was really rather sweet that she’d thought of him the way she had. A man had to be flattered, especially since he’d slipped through those sticky loops with no harm done.

  But deciding a bit of backup wouldn’t be out of order, he dipped into Saint Declan’s Well and sprinkled the water on the ground.

  “Superstitious? A modern-thinking man?”

  Shawn’s head came up, and his eyes met the clever blue ones of Carrick, prince of the faeries. “A modernthinking man knows there’s a reason for superstitions, especially when he stands and finds himself having a conversation with the likes of you.”

  Since he’d come for a purpose, Shawn walked away from the well and over to Maude’s grave. “So, tell me, are you always here and about? I’ve come to this spot all my life, and it’s only recently I’ve seen you.”

  “There was no particular reason for you to see me before recently. I’ve a question for you, Shawn Gallagher, and I’m hoping you’ll be answering it.”

  “Well, you have to ask it first.”

  “So I will.” Carrick sat by the grave across from Shawn so their eyes were level. “What the bleeding, blistering hell are you waiting for?”

  Shawn raised his eyebrows, rested his hands on his knees. “All manner of things.”

  “Oh, that’s typical of you.” Disgust edged Carrick’s voice. “I’m speaking of Mary Brenna O’Toole, and why you haven’t taken her to your bed.”

  “That would be between Brenna and myself,” Shawn said evenly, “and no concern of yours.”

  “Of course it’s a concern of mine.” Carrick was on his feet now, the movement too fast for the human eye to catch. The ring on his finger glowed a deep, deep blue, and the silver pouch hanging from his belt glittered. “I judged you to have the kind of nature that would understand, but you’re more boneheaded than even your brother.”

  “Sure and you aren’t the first to say so.”

  “It’s in place, Gallagher the younger.”

  Because Carrick was now standing beside Shawn rather than across from him, Shawn got to his feet. “And what would that be?”

  “Your part, your destiny. Your choices. How is it you can look into your heart for making your music, and not for living your life?”

  “My life is as I like it.”

  “Boneheaded,” Carrick said again. “Finn protect me from the foolishness of mortals.” He threw up his hands, and thunder rumbled across the clear bowl of the sky.

  “If you think to impress me with parlor tricks, you won’t succeed at it. That’s just your temper talking, and I’ve one of my own.”

  “Would you dare match it to mine?” As a demonstration, Carrick waved a finger, and a bolt of blinding white light lanced into the ground in front of Shawn’s feet.

  “Bully tactics.” Though Shawn had to fight the instinct to leap back. “And unworthy of you.”

  Fury turned Carrick’s eyes nearly black, trembled from his fingertips in little licks of red flame. Then subsided as he threw back his head and laughed. “Well, now, you’ve more courage than I gave you credit for. Or it’s just stupid you are.”

  “Wise enough to know you can cause mischief if you like, but no real harm. You don’t worry me, Carrick.”

  “I could have you on your knees croaking like a bullfrog.”

  “Which would hurt my pride but little else.” Not, Shawn thought, that he wanted to put the matter to the test. “What’s the point of this? Threats don’t endear you to me.”

  “I’ve waited six of your lifetimes for something you could have in an instant, just by holding out your hand.” But this time he sighed. “Tears from the moon I gathered for her the second time.” As he spoke he took the pouch from his belt. “And at her feet I poured the pearls they formed. And all she saw was the pearls.”

  Turning the pouch over, he poured a white waterfall of glowing white gems onto Maude’s grave. “They glowed in the grass, in the moonlight then, white and smooth as Gwen’s skin. But she didn’t see that it wasn’t pearls I’d poured at her feet, but my heart—the longing in it, and aye, the purity of that love as well. I didn’t know she needed to be told, or that it was already too late, as I hadn’t given her the part of me she wanted.”

  Carrick’s voice was full of despair now, and so ripe with unhappiness that Shawn touched his arm. “What did she want?”

  “Love. Just the word. A single word. But I gave her diamonds—jewels plucked from the sun, and these pearls, then the final time the stones you call sapphires that I harvested from the heart of the sea.”