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  and frowned at the knock on his door.

  Likely Hoyt, he decided. Well, he just wouldn’t mention his plans, and thereby avoid a long, irritating debate on the matter. He considered not answering at all, but silence and a locked door wouldn’t stop his brother the sorcerer.

  He knew it was Moira the moment his hand touched the latch. And he cursed. He opened the door, intending to send her on her way quickly so he could be on his.

  She wore white, thin, flowing white, with something filmy over it that was nearly the same gray as her eyes. She smelled like spring—young and full of promise.

  Need coiled inside him like snakes.

  “Do you never sleep?” he demanded.

  “Do you?” She swept by him, the move surprising him enough that he didn’t block it.

  “Well, come right in, make yourself at home.”

  “Thank you.” She said it politely, as if his words hadn’t dripped with sarcasm. Then she set down her candle and turned to the the fire he hadn’t bothered to light.

  “Let’s see if I can do this. I practiced until my ears all but bled. Don’t speak. You’ll distract me.”

  She held out a hand toward the fire. Focused, imagined. Pushed. A single weak flame flickered, so she narrowed her eyes and pushed harder.

  “There!” There was absolute delight in her voice when the turf caught.

  “Now I’m surrounded by bloody magicians.”

  Both her hair and her robes fanned out as she turned. “It’s a good skill, and I intend to learn more.”

  “You won’t find a tutor in sorcery here.”

  “No.” She brushed back her hair. “But I think in other things.” Walking back to the door, she locked it, then turned to him. “I want you to take me to bed.”

  He blinked as otherwise he might have goggled. “What?”

  “There’s not a thing wrong with your hearing, so you heard me well enough. I want to lie with you. I thought I might try being coy or seductive, but then it seemed to me you’d have more respect for plain speaking.”

  The snakes coiled inside him began to writhe. And bite. “Here’s plain speaking. Get out.”

  “I see I’ve surprised you.” She wandered, running a finger over a stack of books. “That’s not easy to do, so as Blair would say, points for me.” She turned again, smiled again. “I’m green at this, so tell me, why would a man be angry to have a woman want to lie with him?”

  “I’m not a man.”

  “Ah.” She lifted a finger to acknowledge his point. “But still, you have needs, desires. You’ve desired me.”

  “A man will put his hand on nearly any female.”

  “You’re not a man,” she shot back, then grinned. “More points for me. You’re not keeping up.”

  “If you’ve been drinking again—”

  “I haven’t. You know I haven’t. But I’ve been thinking. I’m going to war, into battle. I may not live through it. None of us may. Good men died today, in mud and blood, and left broken hearts behind them.”

  “And sex reaffirms life. I know the psychology of it.”

  “That, aye that, true enough. And on a more personal level, I’m damned—I swear it—if I’ll die a virgin. I want to know what it is. I want to feel it.”

  “Then order up a subject for stud, Majesty. I’m not interested.”

  “I don’t want anyone else. I never wanted anyone before you, and haven’t wanted any but you since I first saw you. It shocked me, that I could have any such feelings for you, knowing what you are. But they’re inside me, and they won’t leave. I have needs, like anyone. And wiles enough, I think, to overcome your resistance if need be—though you may no longer be a randy young man.”

  “Found your feet, haven’t you?” he muttered.

  “Oh, I’ve always had them. I’m just careful where I step.” Watching him, measuring him, she trailed a hand down one of the bedposts. “Tell me, what difference would it make to you? An hour or two. You haven’t had a woman in some time, I’m thinking.”

  He felt like an idiot. Stiff and foolish and needy. “That wouldn’t be your concern.”

  “It might be. I’ve read that when a man’s been denied, we’ll say, for a while, it can affect his performance. But you shouldn’t worry about that, as I’ve nothing to compare it to.”

  “Isn’t that lucky for me? Or would be if I wanted you.”

  Her head cocked, and all he could see on her face was curiosity and confidence.

  “You think you can insult me away. I wager—any price you name—that you’re hard as stone right now.” She moved toward him. “I want so much, Cian, for you to touch me. I’m tired of dreaming of it, and want to feel it.”

  The ground was crumbling under his feet. Had been, he knew, since the moment she’d walked in. “You don’t know what you’re asking, what you’re risking. The consequences are beyond you.”

  “A vampire can lie with a human. You won’t hurt me.” She reached up, drew the cross over her head, set it aside on the table.

  “Trusting soul.” He tried for sarcasm, but the gesture had moved him.

  “Confident. I don’t need or want a shield against you. Why do you never say my name?”

  “What? Of course, I do.”

  “No, you don’t. You refer to me, but you never look at me and say my name.” Her eyes were smoke now, and full of knowledge. “Names have power, taken or given. Are you afraid of what I might take from you?”

  “There’s nothing for you to take.”

  “Then say my name.”

  “Moira.”

  “Again, please.” She took his hand, laid it on her heart.

  “Don’t do this.”

  “Cian. There’s your name from me. Cian. I think if you don’t touch me, if you don’t take me, a part of me will die before I ever go to battle. Please.” She framed his face in her hands, and saw—at last—what she needed to see in his eyes. “Say my name.”

  “Moira.” Lost, he took her wrist, turned his lips into her palm. “Moira. If I wasn’t damned already, this would send me to hell.”

  “I’ll try to take you to heaven first, if you teach me.”

  She rose to her toes, drawing him down. Her sigh trembled out when his lips met hers.

  Chapter 10

  He’d believed his will would prevent this. A thousand years, he thought, and sank into her, and the male still deluded itself it could control the female.

  She was leading him, and had in her way been leading him to this from the first instant. Now he would take what she offered him, what she demanded from him, however selfish the act. But he would use the skill of a dozen lifetimes to give her what she wanted in return.

  “You’re foolish, reckless to give up your innocence to such as me.” He skimmed a fingertip across her collarbone. “But you won’t leave now until you have.”

  “Virginity and innocence aren’t always the same. I lost my innocence before I met you.” The night her mother had been murdered, she thought. But memories of that weren’t for tonight.

  Tonight was for knowing him.

  “Should I disrobe for you, or is that for you to do?”

  He gave a short, almost pained laugh before resting his brow to hers in a gesture she found surprisingly tender. “In such a hurry,” he murmured. “Some things, especially the first time they’re tasted, are better savored than gulped.”

  “There, you see. I’ve learned something already. When you kiss me, things wake up inside my body. Things I didn’t know were sleeping there until you. I don’t know what you feel.”

  “More than I’d like.” He combed his fingers through her hair as he’d longed to for weeks. “More than could be good for either of us. This…” He kissed her, softly. “Is a mistake.” And again, deeper.

  Like her scent, her taste was of springtime, of sunlight and youth. He craved the flavor of it, filled himself on it and the quick catch of her breath as he skimmed his teeth lightly, very light, over her bottom lip.

>   He let his hands plunge into her hair, the long, sleek fall of it, then under it to tease and waken the nerves along her spine.

  When she trembled, he brought his hands to her shoulders to slide the robes down and bare that soft flesh for his lips. He could feel the yielding in her as well as the tremors, and when his mouth brushed along her throat, that seductive pulsing of blood under the skin.

  She didn’t jolt when his teeth grazed there, but stiffened when he brushed his hand over her breast.

  No one had ever touched her so intimately. The flash of heat his hands brought her was a shock, as was the knowledge only a thin layer of material was between his hand and her flesh.

  Then even that was gone, and her nightrobes pooled around her feet. Her hand came up instinctively to cover herself, but he only took it, nipped his teeth lightly at her wrist while his eyes watched hers.

  “Are you afraid?”

  “A little.”

  “I won’t bite you.”

  “No, no, not of that.” She turned the hand he held so her palm cupped his cheek. “There’s so much happening inside of me. So much new. No one’s ever touched me like this.” Gathering her courage, she took his other hand, brought it to her breast. “Show me more.”

  He brushed his thumb over her nipple, watched the shock of pleasure flicker over her face. “Turn that busy mind off, Moira.”

  It was already as if mists clouded it. How could she think when her body was swimming in sensation?

  He lifted her off her feet so that her face was suddenly on level with his. Then his mouth took hers into the heat again.

  The bed was beneath her? Had he crossed the room? How had…but her mind misted over again as his hands, his mouth, slid like flaming velvet over her body.

  She was a feast, and he’d fasted far too long. But still he sampled slowly, lingering over tastes and textures. And with each shiver, each sigh or gasp, she fed his own arousal.

  When her curious hands came too close to breaking his control, he caught them in his own, trapping them as he slowly, mercilessly ravished her breasts.

  She was building beneath him; he could feel the power filling her, harder, fuller. And when he pushed her to peak, she bowed up, riding it with a strangled cry.

  She melted down, her hands going limp under his.

  “Oh.” The word was a long expulsion of breath. “Oh, I see.”

  “You think you do.” His tongue traced over the thick beat of the pulse in her throat. As she sighed, he glided his hand between her legs, and sliding into the wet heat, showed her more.

  Everything went bright. It blinded her, the brilliance of it all but seared her eyes, her skin, her heart. She was nothing but feelings now, a mass of pleasures beyond any possibility. She was the arrow from the bow, and he’d shot her high, on an endless flight.

  His hands simply ruled her until she was a hostage to this never-ending need. Half-mad she struggled with his shirt.

  “I need—I want—”

  “I know.” He pulled off his shirt so she could touch and taste him in turn. And let himself glide on the pleasure of her eager explorations. Her breath against his skin, warm and quick, her fingers tracing, then digging. When her hands gripped his hips, he let her help him strip the rest of his clothes away.

  And wasn’t sure whether to be amused or flattered when her eyes went huge.

  “I…I didn’t realize. I’ve seen a cock before, but—”

  Now he laughed. “Oh, have you now?”

  “Of course. Men bathe in the river, and well, and being curious…”

  “You’ve spied on them. A man’s pride isn’t at its, ah, fullest after a bath in a cold river. I won’t hurt you.”

  He’d have to, wouldn’t he? she thought. She’d read of such things, and certainly she’d heard the women speak of it. But she wasn’t afraid of the pain. She feared nothing now.

  So she laid back again, braced for him. But he only began to touch her again, rouse her again, undo her again as if she were a knot of string.

  He wanted her drenched, drowning, beyond thought and nerves. That tight and slender body she’d stiffened in anticipation went loose again. Warm and soft again, with that erotic flush of blood spreading under the skin.

  “Look at me. Moira mo chroi. Look at me. Look into me.”

  This he could do, with will and control. He could ease that moment, that flash of pain and give her only the pleasure. When those heavy gray eyes blurred, he pierced her. He filled her.

  Her lips trembled, and the moan they formed was low and deep. He kept her trapped in his eyes as he began to move, long, slow thrusts that had the thrill of it rippling over her face, over her body.

  Even when he released her from the thrall, when she began to move with him, her eyes stayed locked on his. Her heart was raging, a wild drum against his chest, so vital it seemed—for a moment—as if it beat inside him.

  She came with a cry of wonder and abandonment. At last, at last, he let his own need take him with her.

  She curled up against him, a cat who’d lapped up every drop of cream. He would, he was sure, berate himself later for what he’d done. But for now he was content to wallow a bit.

  “I didn’t know it could be like that,” she murmured. “So enormous.”

  “Being so well-endowed, I’ve likely ruined you for anyone else.”

  “I didn’t mean the size of your pride, as you called it.” Laughing, she looked up at him, and saw from his lazy smile he’d understood her meaning perfectly. “I’ve read of the act, of course. Medical books, storybooks. But the personal experience of it is much more satisfying.”

  “I’m happy to have assisted you in your research.”

  She rolled over so she could splay herself on him. “I’ll need to do considerably more research, I’m thinking, before I know all there is to know. I’m greedy for knowledge.”

  “Damn you, Moira.” he said it with a sigh as he played with her hair. “You’re perfect.”

  “Am I?” Her already glowing cheeks went pinker with pleasure. “I won’t argue because I feel so perfect right now. Thirsty though. Is there any water about?”

  He nudged her aside, then rose to fetch the jug. She sat up as he poured, and her hair spilled over her shoulders and breasts. He thought if he had a heartbeat, the sight of her like this might stop it.

  He handed her the cup, then sat across from her on the bed. “This is madness. You know it.”

  “The world’s gone mad,” she replied. “Why shouldn’t we have a piece of it? I’m not being foolish, or careless,” she said quickly, laying a hand over his. “I have to do so many things, Cian, so many things where there’s no choice for me. This was my choice. My own.”

  She drank, handed him the cup so he could share. “Will you regret something that gave us pleasure and harmed no one?”

  “You haven’t thought about what others will think of you for sharing a bed with me.”

  “Listen to you, worrying about my reputation of all things. I’m my own woman, and I don’t need to explain to anyone whose bed I share.”

  “Being queen—”

  “Doesn’t make me less a woman,” she interrupted. “A Geallian woman, and we’re known for making up our own minds. I was reminded of that earlier tonight.” Now she rose, picking up her outer robe to wrap it around her.

  He thought it was like she wrapped herself in mist.

  “One of my ladies, Ceara—do you know who I mean?”

  “Ah, tall, dark blond hair. She took you down in hand-to-hand.”

  “That she did. Her brother was killed today, on the march. He was young, not yet eighteen.” It pierced her heart, again. “I went to the sitting room where my ladies gather and found her there when I would have given her leave to be with her family.”

  “She’s loyal, and thinks of her duty to you.”

  “Not just to me. She asked if I would give her one thing, in her brother’s name. One thing.” Emotion quivered in her voice before she conque
red it. “And that was to march in the morning with her husband. To go from here, from her children, from safety and face whatever might be on the road. She’s not the only woman who asks to go. We’re not weak. We don’t sit and wait, or no longer will. I was reminded of that tonight.”

  “You’ll let her go.”

  “Her, and any who wish it. In the end, some who may not wish it will be sent. I didn’t come to you because I’m weak, because I needed comfort or protection. I came because I wanted you. I wanted this.”

  She cocked her head, and with a little smile, let the robe fall. “Now it seems I’m wanting you again. Do I need to seduce you?”

  “Too late for that.”

  Her smile widened as she moved toward the bed. “I’ve heard—and I’ve read—that a man needs a bit of time between rounds.”

  “You force me to repeat myself. I’m not a man.”

  He grabbed her hand, flipped her onto the bed—and under him.

  She laughed, tugged playfully at his hair. “Isn’t that handy, under the circumstances.”

  Later, for the first time in too long to remember, Cian didn’t slip into sleep in silence, but to the quiet rhythm of Moira’s heart.

  It was that heart that woke him. He heard the sudden and rapid beat of it even before she thrashed in sleep.

  He cursed, remembering only then she wasn’t wearing her cross, nor had he taken any of Glenna’s precautions against Lilith’s intrusion.

  “Moira.” He took her shoulders, lifting her. “Wake up.”

  He was on the point of shaking her out of it when her eyes flew open. Instead of the fear he’d expected, he saw grief.

  “It was a dream,” he said carefully. “Only a dream. Lilith can’t touch you in dreams.”

  “It wasn’t Lilith. I’m sorry I woke you.”

  “You’re shaking. Here.” He pulled up a blanket, tossed it over her shoulders. “I’ll get the fire going again.”

  “No need. Don’t trouble,” she said even as he got up. “I should go. It must be nearing dawn.”

  He simply crouched down, placed the turf in the hearth. “You won’t trust me with this.”

  “It’s not that. It’s not.” She should have gotten up quickly, she realized. Left straight on waking. For now she couldn’t seem to move. “It wasn’t Lilith, it was just a bad dream. Just…”

  But her breath began to hitch and heave.

  Rather than go to her, he lit the turf, then moved around the room to light candles.

  “I can’t speak of it. I can’t.”

  “Of course you can. Maybe not to me, but to Glenna. I’ll go wake her.”

  “No. No. No.” She covered her face with her hands.

  “So.” Since he was up, and unlikely to sleep again for now, he poured himself a cup of blood. “Geallian women aren’t weak.”