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“Yes, but—”

  “You ought to talk to a lawyer about suing the airline. Better start thinking of practicalities.” She sat with her own coffee. “It’s what you’re best at, anyway.”

  “Mom”—she spoke slowly as if translating a strange foreign language—“Kevin’s dead.”

  “I know that, Stella, and I’m sorry.” Reaching over, Carla gave Stella’s hand a pat. “I dropped everything to come here and give you a hand, didn’t I?”

  “Yes.” She had to remember that. Appreciate that.

  “It’s a damn fucked-up world when a man of his age dies for no good reason. Useless waste. I’ll never understand it.”

  “No.” Pulling a tissue out of her pocket, Stella rubbed the tears away. “Neither will I.”

  “I liked him. But the fact is, you’re in a fix now. Bills, kids to support. Widowed with two growing boys. Not many men want to take on ready-made families, let me tell you.”

  “I don’t want a man to take us on. God, Mom.”

  “You will,” Carla said with a nod. “Take my advice and make sure the next one’s got money. Don’t make my mistakes. You lost your husband, and that’s hard. It’s really hard. But women lose husbands every day. It’s better to lose one this way than to go through a divorce.”

  The pain in Stella’s stomach was too sharp for grief, too cold for rage. “Mom. We had Kevin’s memorial service today. I have his ashes in a goddamn box in my bedroom.”

  “You want my help.” She waggled the spoon. “I’m trying to give it to you. You sue the pants off the airline, get yourself a solid nest egg. And don’t hook yourself up with some loser like I always do. You don’t think divorce is a hard knock, too? Haven’t been through one, have you? Well, I have. Twice. And I might as well tell you it’s coming up on three. I’m done with that stupid son of a bitch. You’ve got no idea what he’s put me through. Not only is he an inconsiderate, loudmouthed asshole, but I think he’s been cheating on me.”

  She pushed away from the table, rummaged around, then cut herself a piece of cake. “He thinks I’m going to tolerate that, he’s mistaken. I’d just love to see his face when he gets served with the papers. Today.”

  “I’m sorry your third marriage isn’t working out,” Stella said stiffly. “But it’s a little hard for me to be sympathetic, since both the third marriage and the third divorce were your choice. Kevin’s dead. My husband is dead, and that sure as hell wasn’t my choice.”

  “You think I want to go through this again? You think I want to come here to help you out, then have your father’s bimbo shoved in my face?”

  “She’s his wife, who has never been anything but decent to you and who has always treated me kindly.”

  “To your face.” Carla stuffed a bite of cake into her mouth. “You think you’re the only one with problems? With heartache? You won’t be so quick to shrug it off when you’re pushing fifty and facing life alone.”

  “You’re pushing fifty from the back end, Mom, and being alone is, again, your choice.”

  Temper turned Carla’s eyes dark and sharp. “I don’t appreciate that tone, Stella. I don’t have to put up with it.”

  “No, you don’t. You certainly don’t. In fact, it would probably be best for both of us if you left. Right now. This was a bad idea. I don’t know what I was thinking.”

  “You want me gone, fine.” Carla shoved up from the table. “I’d just as soon get back to my own life. You never had any gratitude in you, and if you couldn’t be on my back about something you weren’t happy. Next time you want to cry on somebody’s shoulder, call your country bumpkin stepmother.”

  “Oh, I will,” Stella murmured as Carla sailed out of the room. “Believe me.”

  She rose to carry her cup to the sink, then gave in to the petty urge and smashed it. She wanted to break everything as she’d been broken. She wanted to wreak havoc on the world as it had been on her.

  Instead she stood gripping the edge of the sink and praying that her mother would pack and leave quickly. She wanted her out. Why had she ever thought she wanted her to stay? It was always the same between them. Abrasive, combative. No connection, no common ground.

  But God, she’d wanted that shoulder. Needed it so much, just for one night. Tomorrow she would do whatever came next. But she’d wanted to be held and stroked and comforted tonight.

  With trembling fingers she cleaned the broken shards out of the sink, wept over them a little as she poured them into the trash. Then she walked to the phone and called a cab for her mother.

  They didn’t speak again, and Stella decided that was for the best. She closed the door, listened to the cab drive away.

  Alone now, she checked on her sons, tucked blankets over them, laid her lips gently on their heads.

  They were all she had now. And she was all they had.

  She would be a better mother. She swore it. More patient. She would never, never let them down. She would never walk away when they needed her.

  And when they needed her shoulder, by God, she would give it. No matter what. No matter when.

  “You’re first for me,” she whispered. “You’ll always be first for me.”

  In her own room, she undressed again, then took Kevin’s old flannel robe out of the closet. She wrapped herself in it, in the familiar, heartbreaking smell of him.

  Curling up on the bed, she hugged the robe close, shut her eyes, and prayed for morning. For what happened next.

  two

  Harper House January 2004

  SHE COULDN’T AFFORD TO BE INTIMIDATED BY THE house, or by its mistress. They both had reputations.

  The house was said to be elegant and old,with gardens that rivaled Eden. She’d just confirmed that for herself.

  The woman was said to be interesting, somewhat solitary, and perhaps a bit “difficult.” A word, Stella knew, that could mean anything from strong-willed to stone bitch.

  Either way, she could handle it, she reminded herself as she fought the need to get up and pace. She’d handled worse.

  She needed this job. Not just for the salary—and it was generous—but for the structure, for the challenge, for the doing. Doing more, she knew, than circling the wheel she’d fallen into back home.

  She needed a life, something more than clocking time, drawing a paycheck that would be soaked up by bills. She needed, however self-help-book it sounded, something that fulfilled and challenged her.

  Rosalind Harper was fulfilled, Stella was sure. A beautiful ancestral home, a thriving business. What was it like, she wondered, to wake up every morning knowing exactly where you belonged and where you were going?

  If she could earn one thing for herself, and give that gift to her children, it would be the sense of knowing. She was afraid she’d lost any clear sight of that with Kevin’s death. The sense of doing, no problem. Give her a task or a challenge and the room to accomplish or solve it, she was your girl.

  But the sense of knowing who she was, in the heart of herself, had been mangled that day in September of 2001 and had never fully healed.

  This was her start, this move back to Tennessee. This final and face-to-face interview with Rosalind Harper. If she didn’t get the job—well, she’d get another. No one could accuse her of not knowing how to work or how to provide a living for herself and her kids.

  But, God, she wanted this job.

  She straightened her shoulders and tried to ignore all the whispers of doubt muttering inside her head. She’d get this one.

  She’d dressed carefully for this meeting. Businesslike but not fussy, in a navy suit and starched white blouse. Good shoes, good bag, she thought. Simple jewelry. Nothing flashy. Subtle makeup, to bring out the blue of her eyes. She’d fought her hair into a clip at the nape of her neck. If she was lucky, the curling mass of it wouldn’t spring out until the interview was over.

  Rosalind was keeping her waiting. It was probably a mind game, Stella decided as her fingers twisted, untwisted her watchband. Letting her sit and stew in the go
rgeous parlor, letting her take in the lovely antiques and paintings, the sumptuous view from the front windows.

  All in that dreamy and gracious southern style that reminded her she was a Yankee fish out of water.

  Things moved slower down here, she reminded herself. She would have to remember that this was a different pace from the one she was used to, and a different culture.

  The fireplace was probably an Adams, she decided. That lamp was certainly an original Tiffany. Would they call those drapes portieres down here, or was that too Scarlett O’Hara? Were the lace panels under the drapes heirlooms ?

  God, had she ever been more out of her element? What was a middle-class widow from Michigan doing in all this southern splendor?

  She steadied herself, fixed a neutral expression on her face, when she heard footsteps coming down the hall.

  “Brought coffee.” It wasn’t Rosalind, but the cheerful man who’d answered the door and escorted Stella to the parlor.

  He was about thirty, she judged, average height, very slim. He wore his glossy brown hair waved around a movie-poster face set off by sparkling blue eyes. Though he wore black, Stella found nothing butlerlike about it. Much too artsy, too stylish. He’d said his name was David.

  He set the tray with its china pot and cups, the little linen napkins, the sugar and cream, and the tiny vase with its clutch of violets on the coffee table.

  “Roz got a bit hung up, but she’ll be right along, so you just relax and enjoy your coffee. You comfortable in here?”

  “Yes, very.”

  “Anything else I can get you while you’re waiting on her?”

  “No. Thanks.”

  “You just settle on in, then,” he ordered, and poured coffee into a cup. “Nothing like a fire in January, is there? Makes you forget that a few months ago it was hot enough to melt the skin off your bones. What do you take in your coffee, honey?”

  She wasn’t used to being called “honey” by strange men who served her coffee in magnificent parlors. Especially since she suspected he was a few years her junior.

  “Just a little cream.” She had to order herself not to stare at his face—it was, well, delicious, with that full mouth, those sapphire eyes, the strong cheekbones, the sexy little dent in the chin. “Have you worked for Ms. Harper long?”

  “Forever.” He smiled charmingly and handed her the coffee. “Or it seems like it, in the best of all possible ways. Give her a straight answer to a straight question, and don’t take any bullshit.” His grin widened. “She hates it when people kowtow. You know, honey, I love your hair.”

  “Oh.” Automatically, she lifted a hand to it. “Thanks.”

  “Titian knew what he was doing when he painted that color. Good luck with Roz,” he said as he started out. “Great shoes, by the way.”

  She sighed into her coffee. He’d noticed her hair and her shoes, complimented her on both. Gay. Too bad for her side.

  It was good coffee, and David was right. It was nice having a fire in January. Outside, the air was moist and raw, with a broody sky overhead. A woman could get used to a winter hour by the fire drinking good coffee out of—what was it? Meissen, Wedgwood? Curious, she held the cup up to read the maker’s mark.

  “It’s Staffordshire, brought over by one of the Harper brides from England in the mid-nineteenth century.”

  No point in cursing herself, Stella thought. No point in cringing about the fact that her redhead’s complexion would be flushed with embarrassment. She simply lowered the cup and looked Rosalind Harper straight in the eye.

  “It’s beautiful.”

  “I’ve always thought so.” She came in, plopped down in the chair beside Stella’s, and poured herself a cup.

  One of them, Stella realized, had miscalculated the dress code for the interview.

  Rosalind had dressed her tall, willowy form in a baggy olive sweater and mud-colored work pants that were frayed at the cuffs. She was shoeless, with a pair of thick brown socks covering long, narrow feet. Which accounted, Stella supposed, for her silent entry into the room.

  Her hair was short, straight, and black.

  Though to date all their communications had been via phone, fax, or e-mail, Stella had Googled her. She’d wanted background on her potential employer—and a look at the woman.

  Newspaper and magazine clippings had been plentiful. She’d studied Rosalind as a child, through her youth. She’d marveled over the file photos of the stunning and delicate bride of eighteen and sympathized with the pale, stoic-looking widow of twenty-five.

  There had been more, of course. Society-page stuff, gossipy speculation on when and if the widow would marry again. Then quite a bit of press surrounding the forging of the nursery business, her gardens, her love life. Her brief second marriage and divorce.

  Stella’s image had been of a strong-minded, shrewd woman. But she’d attributed those stunning looks to camera angles, lighting, makeup.

  She’d been wrong.

  At forty-six, Rosalind Harper was a rose in full bloom. Not the hothouse sort, Stella mused, but one that weathered the elements, season after season, and came back, year after year, stronger and more beautiful.

  She had a narrow face angled with strong bones and deep, long eyes the color of single-malt scotch. Her mouth, full, strongly sculpted lips, was unpainted—as, to Stella’s expert eye, was the rest of that lovely face.

  There were lines, those thin grooves that the god of time reveled in stamping, fanning out from the corners of the dark eyes, but they didn’t detract.

  All Stella could think was, Could I be you, please, when I grow up? Only I’d like to dress better, if you don’t mind.

  “Kept you waiting, didn’t I?”

  Straight answers, Stella reminded herself. “A little, but it’s not much of a hardship to sit in this room and drink good coffee out of Staffordshire.”

  “David likes to fuss. I was in the propagation house, got caught up.”

  Her voice, Stella thought, was brisk. Not clipped—you just couldn’t clip Tennessee—but it was to the point and full of energy. “You look younger than I expected. You’re what, thirty-three?”

  “Yes.”

  “And your sons are ... six and eight?”

  “That’s right.”

  “You didn’t bring them with you?”

  “No. They’re with my father and his wife right now.”

  “I’m very fond of Will and Jolene. How are they?”

  “They’re good. They’re enjoying having their grandchildren around.”

  “I imagine so. Your daddy shows off pictures of them from time to time and just about bursts with pride.”

  “One of my reasons for relocating here is so they can have more time together.”

  “It’s a good reason. I like young boys myself. Miss having them around. The fact that you come with two played in your favor. Your résumé, your father’s recommendation, the letter from your former employer—well, none of that hurt.”

  She picked up a cookie from the tray, bit in, without her eyes ever leaving Stella’s face. “I need an organizer, someone creative and hardworking, personable and basically tireless. I like people who work for me to keep up with me, and I set a strong pace.”

  “So I’ve been told.” Okay, Stella thought, brisk and to the point in return. “I have a degree in nursery management. With the exception of three years when I stayed home to have my children—and during which time I landscaped my own yard and two neighbors’—I’ve worked in that capacity. For more than two years now, since my husband’s death, I’ve raised my sons and worked outside the home in my field. I’ve done a good job with both. I can keep up with you, Ms. Harper. I can keep up with anyone.”

  Maybe, Roz thought. Just maybe. “Let me see your hands.”

  A little irked, Stella held them out. Roz set down her coffee, took them in hers. She turned them palms up, ran her thumbs over them. “You know how to work.”

  “Yes, I do.”

  “Banke
r suit threw me off. Not that it isn’t a lovely suit.” Roz smiled, then polished off the cookie. “It’s been damp the last couple of days. Let’s see if we can put you in some boots so you don’t ruin those very pretty shoes. I’ll show you around.”

  THE BOOTS WERE TOO BIG, AND THE ARMY-GREEN rubber hardly flattering, but the damp ground and crushed gravel would have been cruel to her new shoes.

  Her own appearance hardly mattered when compared with the operation Rosalind Harper had built.

  In the Garden spread over the west side of the estate. The garden center faced the road, and the grounds at its entrance and running along the sides of its parking area were beautifully landscaped. Even in January, Stella could see the care and creativity put into the presentation with the selection and placement of evergreens and ornamental trees, the mulched rises where she assumed there would be color from bulbs and perennials, from splashy annuals through the spring and summer and into fall.

  After one look she didn’t want the job. She was desperate for it. The lust tied knots of nerves and desire in her belly, the kinds that were usually reserved for a lover.

  “I didn’t want the retail end of this near the house,” Roz said as she parked the truck. “I didn’t want to see commerce out my parlor window. Harpers are, and always have been, business-minded. Even back when some of the land around here was planted with cotton instead of houses.”

  Because Stella’s mouth was too dry to speak, she only nodded. The main house wasn’t visible from here. A wedge of natural woods shielded it from view and kept the long, low outbuildings, the center itself, and, she imagined, most of the greenhouses from intruding on any view from Harper House.

  And just look at that gorgeous old ruby horse chestnut!

  “This section’s open to the public twelve months a year,” Roz continued. “We carry all the sidelines you’d expect, along with houseplants and a selection of gardening books. My oldest son’s helping me manage this section, though he’s happier in the greenhouses or out in the field. We’ve got two part-time clerks right now. We’ll need more in a few weeks.”